hardcore superstar- by far, you're the ultimate star

credits to the amasing tegan and sara for the title.

okay. so. i need help.
really.
but i'm not going to scare you all.
i'll just keep it inside- maybe it'll go away with time.
just-
is it normal to want to get a life-threatening disease and beat it, just to prove to yourself that life's worth living?
no.
i know it's not.
i just...
can't help but feel worthless. like i'm wasting everybody's time, killing innocent people in africa but breathing their air.
we're all going to die eventually... sometimes i wish eventually was now.
i feel as if i have no talent. i'm just that kid that no one needs around.
would you cry for me?
or would you laugh at me, making fun of my.. my... there's not even a word for it.
it's just... emotion.
but emotion shouldn't be able to control you.
i wish i was bipolar. then i could take lith and BAM i'd be happy.
but i'm not.
i'm not anything,

this isn't acting- actors don't die.
i swear it's true- this is no lie.
just when you think it'll all be alright-
the dark consumes all- you can't find the light.
i'm twisting and turning-
nothing to break my fall.